Choices

In our lives we're faced with a multitude of choices, from little ones to life changing decisions that can turn your whole world upside down. At the moment a lot people in my life are making momentous choices and decisions, from changing jobs to moving houses. My personal decisions recently haven't been out anything as important, but instead it's been my choice whether I stay sorry with myself over being ill, or if I get up, dust myself off and get on with things. Today, I choose, and accept the later.

This past week I've had an appointment with an eye specialist to see if my dizziness was down to a brain tumour or a blood clot affecting my eyesight, luckily it wasn't. So, it's an inner ear 'thing' as suspected, I've chosen to be booked in privately to see a specialist and I have an appointment on Tuesday to get a proper diagnosis and to start physiotherapy, otherwise known as VRT (Vestibular Rehabilitation Therapy). I'm so happy I've made this decision, especially as I can't walk at the moment. Can you believe your vestibular system controls everything from anxiety, heart rate as well as your balance?! It can also bring on symptoms such as weakness in your arms and legs making it hard for sufferers to walk or even hold on to anything, blurry eyes and fatigue. It is horrible, but you have to accept what you have and move on. It may all seem incredibly over the top to anyone reading this, but believe me when I say dealing with these kind of dysfunctions isn't easy, all we can do is choose to accept our fate or choose to fight it and live as much as we can with what we have.

I choose to accept what I have, and then move on, there's too much life to live than to be dwelling on dizziness and all of the other symptoms that accompany this rubbish.

If you want to know more about these somewhat unheard of invisible disorders then please, look on this website. But from here on out, I'm feeling positive and I'm determined to get better.

Water, Water everywhere.

I love being by the water, I've spent my life growing up on the South Coast of England. I live 10 minutes from the Thames Estuary, now it isn't the most beautiful beach, but it has its charms and some days when the light hits the river it glitters like a thousands diamonds on those days you feel so incredibly lucky to be in this part of the world. Since I was little I have been in love with the water, any type will do from the great big expanse of ocean to tranquil lakes, from babbling brooks to raging rivers. The following photos are from my trip to Wales, where we found lakes, rivers, brooks, water falls and finally my true water love, the ocean. 

There's a quote I love, it goes something along the lines of The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears, or the sea" Now, I love all types of water, but the sea, oh the sea, will always hold a special place in my heart. Seriously is there anything better than being by the ocean? From big quiet beaches, loud roaring waves to the hushed 'wooshes' of the tide. I couldn't be too far from the sea, I love it too much.

And let's be honest... who doesn't love a waterfall? This is the falls that we walked behind, after clambering over rocks and walking through the river with little rainbows springing up from it we got to stand behind the curtain of water. It was the most amazing experience, I loved being behind such a great force, the noise was extreme but we couldn't help but laugh and smile as the spray hit us.

Photos taken on my 

Polaroid SX70 and Impossible Project Color Shade COOL film.

And my Rolleiflex and Kodak Ektar film.